If It Is Mine and It Will Be Mine.

My tagline today is “if something is meant to be yours and it will be yours, no matter what.” What you have to do is praying and waiting and be patience. I just find out that I may have lost my patience. I just do things in instant way which is not the way I used to do things.

I just finished the day by drinking wine with my host mother and in the middle of it I just realize how lucky I am to have her. Although, yesterday I was uncomfortable with the house I just feel alright now. Well, no bodies know what people is thinking about you and what they may do to cut you down. Believe one thing as I always trying to do. Believe that GOD is stand there with you. HE loves you and I am sure HE will never ashamed you. Just be what you are. Be the best and try the best. If it is belong to you then it will be yours.

The time goes so fast and we will have Easter soon. What is Easter then for me? Easter is where GOD died for me. Take all my sins, my wrong doing things, and replace it with joy and a new life where HE become the King of my life. In this Easter, I was reminded about U-TURN. U-Turn is to change, change your direction, change your life, change yourselves. Well, I know I need to change my self and I do know I must love and love more.

I said I miss Jesus yesterday. Yeah, when I call HE is there is real. I just full of HIM today. When I wake up, I know He will be with me. When I walk the day, I know He is there. I need to speak more and listen more. Speak and listen. Pray and listen. This is the day, that I found myself full. I believe Jesus cares for today.

I just walked to the aged care today and I know that if GOD wants me to be there HE will make me there. I pray for the best. There is only one way to change, ask GOD to change by prayer.

My brother has his exam today and he said: “It was easy and it was hard. I’ve done it, no worries.”

Yeah, no worries. GOD holds me tight.

I Realize My Heart Missing Something.

Today is 29th March 2010. It has been a month and 20 days for me to be away from Indonesia. It has been a memory for me to not having my mobile ringing with “Bunda calling” on it. I miss my mom, I miss her. I called her and she said to me: “Keep praying!” Yeah, I will keep praying.

As I did all my Uni work today I realize something. My brother is facing his final exam today. I can’t tell how exciting I am when I called him. He just said: “One day is done. Three more to come.”

 

As I keep doing my assignment for Uni, I realize something. I miss my dad as well. He keeps telling me to do my best. Have I? I miss him.

As I begin writing this, I realize something. I have one power to keep me doing thing right. I have the give of love with me. I have the one that die for me on the cross. And I will just live for Him.

It may be a hard work for my heart here. But I do believe that He is doing something with me. He is working with the new me. It is just Him in me and I just want be His. I have been brought with a precious price!

I miss Jesus.