My Soul-Mate Prayer

Oh Lord, I pray for a man that would a part of my life

A man that really loves You more than everything

A man that will make me the second best in his heart

A man that lives not for himself but for You

Face and physical attraction isn’t important, the most important thing is I want a heart that really loves and thirsty of You and has a desire to be like Jesus. And he must know for whom and for what he lived, so his life isn’t useless.

Someone who has a wise heart, not only a smart brain.

A man that loves me but also respects me.

A man that not only can adore me but can warn me when I am wrong.

A man that loves me not for my beauty but for my heart.

A man that can be my best friend in every time and each situation.

A man that makes me feel like a woman when I am beside him.

I am not asking for a perfect man Lord, but I am asking for an imperfect man instead so I can make him perfect in Your eyes.

A man that needs my support for his strength.

A man that needs my prayer for his life.

A man that needs my smile to cover his sadness.

A man that needs my love so he could feel be loved.

A man that needs me to make his life perfect.

And I also ask Lord, please make me to be a woman that could make him proud.

Give me a heart that really loves You so I could love him with Your love not with my love.

Give me Your gentle spirit Lord Jesus, so my beauty won’t come for my appearance but come from You.

Give me Your hands that enables me to pray for him always.

Give me Your eyes so I can see many good things in him and not the bad one.

Give me Your mouth that fulfilled with Your words of wisdom and encouragement so I could support him everyday.

Give me Your lips and I will smile at him every morning and I want that when we finally meet, both of us, we can say: “How great Thou art!”.

Lord, please give me someone that could make my live perfect. I know that You want us to meet at Your right time and You will make everything beautiful in Your time.

In the name of Jesus, I pray.

AMEN.

 

The prayer above was a prayer that I have been praying since junior high. I can’t remember where I got that prayer but for them who has written this prayer, I want to say thank you. And I hope this prayer can still be a blessing for everybody else.

I am nothing without YOU

When I take a look on my life from the start of my journey here during my university life, I can only say thank you to God. Because of Him, I can have the opportunity to study as a nurse and soon to be graduated as a nurse. So far, I am so proud of what I achieved and say that this must be only because of Him.

As I am still human and somehow imperfect, I feel I am messing up my life lately. I assume that in some point of my life these days, i did something wrong that i didn’t recognize unless somebody told me I am doing wrong. I just can’t feel anything related to right and wrong.

I need somebody to tell me that I am definitely doing something wrong and I need to change my direction. I am glad that God care for me, and He blessed me with a friend, a best friend, i should say that she never hold it back or never think about how I feel as long as she knows that I am doing something wrong and need some corrections. I like this person. She is one of few friends of mine that always say the truth. I am happier to know that God spoke to me through His word today, He said that because He loves me than He will discipline me. I am happy because I know that I need that at the moment.

I am sad to realize that i only have very few friends at the moment. This reminds me that i may not putting a lot of efforts to become a good friend that is why I have only few friends. Well, the proverb said, I need to be a good friend if I want to have a good friend. So maybe I haven’t tried my best to be a good friend.

Now my heart is still beating so fast to find out that near my end of study as I realize i need to write a research paper, my examiner are those who I adored in my school. A nurse from America, two nurses from Indonesia, and a nurse that is going to be in England. Well, four of them I adored because of their knowledge, skills, and attitude. I am trembling to meet them on the first presentation of my research, but I know I will be fine when I put my trust in Jesus.

Hey, let me tell you the song that I’ve been listening to lately. It said: “Teach me to trust in You, with all of my heart. To lean not on my own understanding. Because I just forget, You won’t give me what I can’t bear.”

I am nothing without Him, Jesus. All my relationship I need to lay it down to Jesus, He is the one and only Friend I had forever. The only Friend that has laid down His life for me so that I can be saved. For all my worries, I remember that my worries would not help me in finishing my research paper. Jesus will surely help me by providing a great wisdom and understanding about the topic. I know that He will use things around me to discipline me so I can be more like Him day by day.

I can’t stop talking about Him, because He is everything to me. Thank you Jesus that although I am this unclean and imperfect, You still loves me so. I am here Lord, presenting my life back to You. Please take the wheel and drive my life according to YOU J-maps, the map created by You where I can have a great journey in glorifying your Name.