The Diary of My Heart

Another picture of LOVE

2011-12-26T20:38:00.001+07:00

I remember watched a two-hour movie titled “LOVE SICK” with my sisters in the dorm. It was a very simple movie but it sort of kicked me in my gut. It brought me a new perspective about love. Love is something that will never run away from us. It is there and when it is our time to experience it we can never say no or run away. :) It also shows how a gentleman needs to be gentleman in order to win the lady’s heart! ;)

Anyway, this reminds me of my dear friend. :) the dear friend of mine that always with me. ;) cheer me up, irritating me, filled my phone’s inbox, shared things with me, AND OF COURSE colonized my bed in the dorm. She is a lovely lady! I met her 3 years ago. She was so arrogant, I can’t speak to her, and I need my every courage to let her take what I am saying to her. She is like my mom, famous around boys, so I know that she has many loves story that I just can’t understand how love could so easily come to her. :) She is the booster around to other girls in the group, if she says yes then all other will be yes, if she says no then it’ll be a no for all. :(

Well, thanks Jesus that she is so different now! She has become somebody else that is so much better than she is used to be.

A man praised her one day and thanked me because now she is a cheerful and wise lady. (this man was the reason why I wrote this). He should not be thanking to me, because truly I never do anything to her. I ignore her all the time, make her mad, and be busy with my life! She hates me so for this but she has grown stronger each day. ;)

Alright, the man is my friend. I don’t know how this lady and this man met but the world is just so small if God wants it to be small. :) So they are now friends. I can see that they have fall for each other but they are just arrrghh so complicated! :(

I cannot tell anything else abut this complicated story but I can write about how love is so amazing!

The lady and the man are both Catholic. They met in prayer and know that their prayers is being answered well by God in some ways that they just don’t understand how. I praise GOD when I saw them. I praise GOD when they both went away with tears on their eyes and rang me at the same time! I wasn’t even with them when they called me! I thanked GOD that how they care for each other can be seen clearly in my eyes.

I just have no idea how this story will end because GOD is the only one who has the pen and the eraser for this love story.

To my dear friend, I really want to write this:

Dear sister in Christ, I thanked God for you. I thanked God that He chose you to be with me and to grow together with me. It was a great time and wonderful memories to know you and share things with you.

As the days go by, I remember how you always be there to make sure that I know I can do things great and that you learned many things from me. Until now, I know you always try to make sure that I am confidence enough to say: ‘Yes, I have done this best thing in my life!’ because you know, I am always so not-confidence with what I did.

my dear one, THANK YOU! i have absorbs many things also from you and I can feel it. I have absorbs your stubbornness. I know I just can’t stand it if somebody say ‘No’ and ‘disagree’ with me. Thank you that you help me learned my lesson in patience and in forgiveness. Thank you that you let me learn how to love, like, admire, and let go! Thank you that you have opened my eyes to the gentleman. ;) Thank you that you have made me care more for others. :) Thank you for let me be your sister in Christ.

One day, when you walk down the aisle on your wedding day, please remember the sentence we read together in ‘our bench’ at our lovely campus. “when God wants it, in His right time, He will make your partner cross your path and be with you.” As you walk down on that day, I know that it is your time. :) I will always be here watching you by the distance, be a 24/7 customer service agent, and let you sleep in my bed when needed. :)

I love you for what you are and you are my sister no matter what! Remember, every time you call me I know that you are the beauty and the one that I love to hear talking with me about anything!

Thank YOU, JESUS for the relationship YOU made between us. Help us to be what YOU want us to be. :)

I had this conversation with another sister in Christ.

A: Hey, isn’t it wonderful when we think about LOVE?

B: Yes, absolutely! How Jesus loves us so much!

A: True, but not only that! How He designed us, ladies, to meet the gentlemen! That part is always wonderful to me. God’s love is everywhere!

B: And which part is amazing? I know many wonderful stories in the Bible about love.

A: Can you imagine this: man always send signals if they like woman. Imagine a lighthouse. I remember standing in the front deck of a big ship in the night and I am just so confuse to see which one is the light from the lighthouse. Man’s signals towards woman are like that. As woman, we are the ship, standing on our feet making life in the seas. Lighthouse stand there in the land, and as a ship we need to come to the land to sell and buy things for living. The environment, the sun and the moon are God’s love! with the help of the sun, we can see the lighthouse in the daytime and know it in the night by the help of the moon. If it is God’s willing, we will approach the lighthouse soon. ;)

B: Kakaaak, that’s true! Never think about that but that is true! absolutely true! And above all it is GOD that loves us so much! He is the amazing love, He was born naturally for something supernaturally that we may become HIS children! :) LOVE IS SO AMAZING!

Thanks Jesus that YOUR LOVE is so amazing! :)

Because YOU are faithful!

2011-12-26T02:10:00.001+07:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :)

It has been a while since I was writing and explaining what has been going on with me lately or how faithful GOD as always with me.

Since August 2011, I have graduated from my nursing school. Praise GOD for that, because I cannot complete my study if it wasn’t HIM with me. He is the GOD that enables me to finish my final paper/thesis on 3 days! HE is so amazing, I always tremble when I remember the day my supervisor/lecturer told me that I need to finish my paper just 2 days after the data collection. I wasn’t messing around but the timing was so instant. Praise GOD, I did finish it! Praise HIM more that it was an A! :)

I never know what HE has planned ahead for me but I did submit my resume and cover letter to my university and the hospital where I used to do my clinical to look for something to do during gap year before I start my professional year as a nurse. Well, I did help in my school as a laboratory assistant and was assisting my brother and sister (and myself) to learn more about nursing and the clinical skill (that I am also learning). It was fun and it gave me new perspective about lectures and how classes is not as simple as to just come on time, sit down, and listen to the lecturer. It is more than that! There are heaps of work for the lecturers that we as students sometimes just don’t understand. Thanks to JESUS, this experience opened my eyes and heart to appreciate my teachers/lecturers more! Thanks Jesus for them who taught me at school and university!

My resume and cover letter ended up in my university itself but in another department. It ended up in the science and mathematics department! MAN, I am not good in maths and science (except biology)! The bosses did call me for an interview on Friday and it was a 45mins interview with 2hours training on the same day! I need to be there on Monday for a budget meeting that I just don’t know at all what it is about! It was so unexplainable for me myself! It just happen like a click! I am a junior administrative staff now (a temporary one)! :)

Before I start my work as administrative one, I need to be working in the promotion team for my nursing school. It was so challenging but I got the chance to change people’s perspective about nursing. They always think that nursing is just to help people, assist doctor and following the doctor’s order. Truly, nursing is more than that, many things and so amazing! :) I prayed that many new nurses will be born from this city and they will love Jesus so much so that the care was made just because of Jesus!

Then the days as administrative staff begin. I started my day by a special lecture about budget given by the head of math course. I just don’t get a picture of what he was talking about and what he was expecting me to do with what he has explained to me but he was a great lecture, clear explanation and so patience! Then I began to read all the files that the former staff left me (actually I just had no idea about what all is stated there). Days passed and I got used to what I am doing. Praise GOD for my coworker that was SO helpful! She is so ‘alkaline-lady’ type! She could manage things well and always had a way to solve things. We are working on accreditation and I need to become the secretary! Something that I just not used to! I tried all my best to cover up and to write all the notes down as I always do with all the lectures that I had.

As the time flies, we finish up with the budget planning and we move on with the accreditation! I remember one day, when the head of math program asked me for my full name and my title (as I already complete my study officially but not ceremonially), I became so proud of myself. That day was the first time in my life I used my title.

Now, I am Kinanthi Lebdawicaksaputri, S.Kep.

Deep in me, I thanked GOD for it! and I questioned myself, will I be ready to bear the responsibility I need to bear with that title? I am a nurse! :) once again, I am a nurse! I just can’t believe it! I AM A NURSE! :) :)

After one month of work, it is now the day of my graduation! I thanked GOD for my study as HE has sent me to many places during my study to experience many things. As I stand there in the first row as best graduate from my school (I just can’t believe this but it is for real), I prayed that GOD would allow me to do my best to help many people so that they may see HIM in me as I help them. It is hard! I feel the pressure when I stand and pronounced the vow to be working all of my life for the good of my country which will glorify GOD. I am just not ready so not ready but I know I am ready based on the experiences physically! please, be with me GOD! :) :)

I do enjoy work as administrative staff and it is so fun but then I sort of loose my vision as a nurse that I should pursuing my goal as a professional Christian nurse! :) so when it is time for me to leave for my professional year that (suddenly, but fine) will be in January 2012, I am just so scared! I am scared that I cannot do my best as I used to be and I just so scared that my skills are just not enough to make me a good nurse. One thing that I am also scared is also scared to leave. ;) I know my heart, it is so easy to get used to something, but it is just so hard to leave it behind. :( Well, I hope it will be smooth when January finally come. :)

Anyway, through this last few months I just realize that no matter what, Jesus is so faithful. He is so faithful that I just have no words to explain! Through my worries, anxiety, and scares, HE is there! So faithful!

That is why I will do my best to be obedience to HIM!

Here below I posted a lyric by Brian Doerksen in his song Your faithfulness:

I don't know what this day will bring
Will it be disappointing, filled with longed for things?
I don't know what tomorrow holds
Still I know I can trust Your faithfulness
I don't know if these clouds mean rain
If they do, will they pour down blessing or pain?
I don't know what the future holds
Still I know I can trust Your faithfulness

Certain as the rivers reach the sea
Certain as the sunrise in the east
I can rest in your faithfulness
Surer than a mother's tender love
Surer than the stars still shine above
I can rest in your faithfulness

I don't know how or when I'll die
Will it be a thief, or will I have a chance to say goodbye?
No, I don't know how much time is left
But in the end, I will know your faithfulness
When darkness overwhelms my soul
When thoughts and storms of doubt
Still I trust You are always faithful, always faithful

Certain as the rivers reach the sea
Certain as the sunrise in the east
I can rest in your faithfulness
Surer than a mother's tender love
Surer than the stars still shine above
I can rest in your faithfulness

I don't know what this day will bring
Will it be disappointing, filled with longed for things?
I don't know what tomorrow holds
Still I know I can trust Your faithfulness

This song has blessed me personally in the time when I just feel I just cannot handle things! Too much, too complicated, and I am just not ready! I just so scared, I am afraid I will failed! :(

This song reminds me:

GOD is FAITHFUL!
HE is in control for everything!
HE is with me every single moment!
Although it will be the darkest time of my life, GOD is my light and bring me hope!
All that I am, I know I am HIS daughter, and HE loves me so!

The crushes of my heart! (My heart is under-construction)

2011-10-10T02:56:00.001+07:00

Today, October 9, 2011 is the important day in my life. I am becoming the member of Harvest Mission Community Church of Jakarta known as HMCC. Why? Because I know that I am growing Christ-like in this church and this church is about mission where we as the follower of Christ needs to make an effort for some transformation in the live of the community where we lived.

And why is the title of this post so strange? It is because my heart is under-construction. :D Frankly, I need to be honest here that I am so longing for someone who will be my life-long room-mate. But, I also realize that I may not ready yet to have a relationship and I know I need to know more about God, the one that treasured my heart so much. The One that love me, before I even born. The One that longing so much for my heart to be truly His. Therefore, in this post I’ll explain about the crushes that happened with me since I do realize it sometimes affects my days. It is a new me, when I live for Christ and offer everything in my life for Him (once more) so that He could do the best He wants in my life to glorify Him. So, let’s get started. :)

I had two crushes since I broke up with my ex-boyfriend in 2004. :) I am not the type of person that easily fall in love but these guys in these crushes somehow stood-up with their way of approaching. :) The person of my crushes was: my extended family, and my trainer.

1) My extended family

It was 9 years ago, when I first met him, R. This guy was a family from my uncle. He was the nephew of my uncle, and I was the niece of my aunt. So, we were family because my uncle and my aunt married. :) This time, I do take him as my family and I don’t have any feeling for him but I do care about him. All the relatives that know both of us was always teasing us because in fact, I am a year older than him but 2 grades ahead of him. Well, I sort of proud of myself. We grew up know each other but our road never crossed each others. He went to Christian school, I went to public school. We grew up.

Somehow, R is so famous. Everybody seemed to be talking about him. It seems that his world was spun near my world so that my girl friends know about him. Because I know he was part of my relatives, I am sort of proud to know good thing about him. Even if I heard something unpleasant about him, I try to clarify it. Now, I realize that by doing so, I am doing something stupid with my heart. Since I do care about what people think about him, I am giving him a place in my heart, and that bit in my heart grow bigger each day unconsciously. I do not realize it so much but I know, my heart pound so much and got so excited when it was about him. I know he has a girlfriend and I am fine.

One night, before we both graduated from our high school, we had a chat about what we are going to be in the future. I was saying that I will become a nurse to help people in need (Praise GOD, I did now), and he was saying he will take care their family farm and produces good crops in order to help those in need too. I was so proud of his goodwill and I know that, as my dad is an agricultural lecturer, R will be a good student to him.

My first year of University was great! I leave home but I had full support from my family and R was also so nice to me. R and I was having good communication and this is bad for my heart that I begin to know that I care more than I should to him. That bit of heart grow bigger and bigger, and I do love it grows. I don’t know anything else about R and how he lived but I know that he is also doing good in his study and that he is dong great in the ministry for Christ. Nothing specially happening between us but I do begin to admire R more day by day. ;)

Short story, I had once (or twice) confess that I do care about him but no response. :( I was sad but than I think it was just fine. I pray for him regularly and I do believe God took a very good care of him. We kind of lost contact because I was so busy in my nursing school try to get my goal (Thanks to GOD as I finally reach my goal). So, one day I just know that he now become actor. :D My mom was back home and she was always praising R and said that he is a good-hearted guy (this supports me a lot) but then we had less and less contact as he was busy. I gave up with my feeling for him but still pray the best for him.

Then one day he called me. I was so excited! R was asking about me and how am I doing. He was saying that he now moved to where I am so we are closed by. :) My heart excited so much and somehow it lifted up my feeling but then there he went undiscovered again, so my heart was turned down again. :( well, it happened not just once but few times. Well, because we are now living close by, he sometimes promised to come and see me, but it never happened so my heart again was lifted and then left behind. :( I am now kind of tired about him, so now I want to give a big STOP sign for him! :) I know I may regret this if someday he returns to me and response to me, but I’ll give the clue where he needs to go first. If I had the chance to say this to him, I’ll say this:

Dear R, I am thanking God for you. I am thanking God because you have helped me in my lesson for love and sacrificing. Thank you for the cry because of you that I now I know what does it feel when somebody is truly care about me.

Thank you for the uncertainty that broke my heart so that I now appreciate certainty so much. Thank you R, that I ever care about you, praying for you, and expecting from you that now I understand what is loving in this life and how it needs to forgive, to forget, and to let go.

If someday, you are able to read and regret things that happened between us (if you do), please go see God as I am putting a big sign of “DO NOT ENTER” in front of my heart. See God and please ask the key to my heart because my heart is under-construction and God has the key to it. :)

Well, this is the extended family crush. R stood up because my mom said he is a good-hearted guy, how he loved God and his ministry, and how he wants to help those in need. But I was probably expected too high, so I am letting go. I still do feel the pounded heart of mine every time I saw his picture and how he appears on TV. But I am letting go. :D

2) the trainer

The first time I met him, I was so happy. He was the guy that so well-dressed waited in my school lobby for the class he would be teaching at. :) He was waiting with a friend of mine, so when she saw me, she did introduced me with this guy. His name is D. I was so happy, too happy to meet him and was asking for his email address as I was planning to get to know him more. You know, I love foreigners. I love their language, their culture. Something new that I don’t know so I was happy to get to know him. :)

We were friends since that time, had emails in and out. :) Well, then I had this opportunity to participate in this work placement when where he was my trainer. :) As I participate in this training, I had the chance to admire him more because he was so bright, has this sort of passion for project where we are working on and a very good teacher. :D

I will never forget that I only had two pictures together with him with only both of us on it. The first one, we took when we had the first excursion during our training and went to the beach. I was asking a picture with him and he was coming and saying: “is this our pre-wed picture?”. Frankly, I stood there with this hard-pounded heart and odd smile. :( but I do love it when he said so, that sort of grow a bit part of my heart towards him but I sort of not realizing it. :( at the end of the placement, he offered me two dolls, the koala and the kangaroo. I chose the koala and this little cute koala is sitting next to me right now. :)

The second picture was taken during our day out in Melbourne to the Titanic exhibition. That was the best day of me in Melbourne! So, D made a Facebook-message saying that he was going to come to Melbourne as I was on exchange student program there. D is from Perth so he was flying from Perth to Melbourne (a very far route like from Jakarta to Jayapura). So I was more than happy on that day! It was just a morning but I do love it much as he was the one who accompany me rode the City-Circle-tram that we both decided not to ride anymore in the future. We went to this Titanic exhibition and I had so much fun as he was teasing me during that exhibition. :( well, I was to say a third-class Titanic passenger in this exhibition and he was the first-class passenger, so he was happy, so happy for that fact. It was just a short visit but it was very nice! I did sent him the picture of us and he sent me a cute little note-book that I used all the time from that time on. :) I know my heart has the feeling for him but I was too stupid to not realize it until now. :(

He was too good for me that I always said to myself, it is just impossible for him to like me but I do admire him. :( and now he is going to fly home to Perth and I feel so bad. If I had the chance to let him know I’ll say:

Dear D, thank you for making me so happy, I am sorry if I was not so sensitive for you. I thanked God that you made me learned about to love generously and to enjoy every single time together with the one you treasured much.

Thank you that you have shown me a new perspective in life. :) Thank you for the motivation for research you poured in me unconsciously. ;)

Now, I am putting a sign of “DO NOT ENTER” in front of my heart now. So if you want you can go see God and ask for the key of my heart. :)

D stood up because he was so passionate about Indonesia, he learned Bahasa Indonesia, he was a good teacher, and he love mission too (I guess). And I am letting go this too. :D

So the final message for this post:

Dear God, I am now offering you the key of my heart. I am putting on the sign of “DO NOT ENTER” in front of my heart and please sealed my heart for YOU only God. :) I am committing my heart to You GOD. Here my heart, please mold it to be a heart that truly love You.

Please, make me a women that will be able to love my life-long room-mate passionately. Please purify my heart so that I can love You more and also love him. I pray that me and him will be able to serve You faithfully and passionately in the future.

Please, take care of my life-long room-mate as well, God, as he is doing his part. Let his heart also only longing for You so that he could love me afterwards.

Thank you for R and D. Please guide and keep them in their ways of knowing You more and please blessed their relationship with You. :)

And if one day either R or D or others will try to get into my heart, please help them to understand that You have the key to my heart. At that time please make me realize that it’s the time to learn to love my life-long room-mate.

Thanks Jesus, this is my desire to live a life that full with You, to serve You and to be committed to You always.

In Jesus I pray. Amen.

The Power of FORGIVENESS

2011-10-09T00:30:00.001+07:00

I attended the ILCP online and has been blessed much!

So, I share it with you!

Mat 18:15 "If your brother sins against you,[b] go and show him his fault, just between the two of you. If he listens to you, you have won your brother over.
Mat 18:16 But if he will not listen, take one or two others along, so that 'every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.'[c]
Mat 18:17 If he refuses to listen to them, tell it to the church; and if he refuses to listen even to the church, treat him as you would a pagan or a tax collector.

Mat 18:18 "I tell you the truth, whatever you bind on earth will be[d] bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be[e] loosed in heaven.

Mat 18:19 "Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven.
Mat 18:20 For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them."

The sermon resume are useful for relationship. Here are they:

10. Park your ego in front of the door. Be humble! be like the children that is so loveable and uncomplicated in life. :)

09. Receive a person in Jesus. Jesus brought forgiveness that enabled us to love them unconditionally.

08. Don’t make them sin. Teach others to love their neighbor and to obey all the conditions in community.

07. Forgive them. :) if they are hurting you, just forgive them and love them.

06. Cut the sin out! Remove the sin!

05. Love them more! They may have special relationship with GOD.

04.(v.12-14) Go see that person :) prove that you care. ;)

03. (v.15-20) TALK TO THEM AND WORK IT OUT! TALK AGAIN! TALK AND FINISH IT!

02. Keep CHRIST in the middle of every relationship.

01. Gather in the name of Jesus. :)

I missed writing something

2011-08-31T21:38:00.001+07:00

It has been a while or a long time since I post something on my blog!

Time flies! I am soon graduating and entering the real world of nursing!

The world of work where responsibilities are your best friend. With schedule and flexibility along the day. :)

Praise GOD, I am reaching out my hands for my bachelor finish line. Hope to have Master and Doctoral as well, as all my role models got theirs already.

Well, everything has its own time so now I have time to begin writing again! this time I’ll take it seriously! :D

Happy writing!!! :)

It Is Just Worth It

2011-04-06T14:26:00.001+07:00

Today’s theme is “It is just worth it!”

I was presenting about restrain today with my fellow students. During the presentation, I was thinking about how important communication in a nursing care for they who are mentally ill. Communication plays a very important role in caring for the mentally ill person. Nothing else can do better than communication. If the patient was rejecting a treatment with a good understanding from a good communication, the treatment may be done.

Anyway, after the presentation done, I spend few hours (include now) to just sit in the library and finish all may assignment. It is near the end of my semester and soon I can do any others things. :)

As I read my devotion today, I was reminded about praying for my foes. It was not a really hard foes, but it was those who I just cannot be together with. I am ashamed. Jesus knew it that Judah, the one that betrayed Him, was there doing fools to Him, but still Jesus was still sitting together with him and ate the last supper together. How amazing it is. I cannot do that. I always feels uncomfortable when somebody that intimidate me is around. I hope I can escape from that situation but I cannot. So today, i make a commitment for myself. My foes can be around but I will still value them as friend. Jesus did put a very good example for me, so now I need to try to do so.

I like this last sentences from the devotional, hope you are blessed too:

Not many people really choose to put God on the throne in their lives, but those who do find a life worth living. It’s a life empowered with purpose, joy and peace.

All the best! Hmm, my assignments are calling me.. C U!

hmm, thank you Jesus for today! :D

It is worth it to do good to your foes. At least, you are practicing what Jesus did. ;)

Am I Still Pumping Up?

2011-03-13T22:55:00.001+07:00

Today is March 13th, 2011. A year ago I was away. Thinking back to that moment, I realized that I have been through many things which made me stronger yet weak. I hate it when I realize few things made me weak!

Well, back to the now situation. I am writing my research proposal at the moment. I am amazed when I read journals and books about how wide the world of nursing is and that there is still some gaps between things that still become a good chance for nursing research.

I look around and see my friends around, they might be still pump up for what is going on around here. How about me? I am I guess.

Well this is the pumping up spirits that are in my belongings right now.

5% from my heart because I want to be a professional nurse, serving people to glorifying God.

5% from my mom, because she wants to see me be successful in life.

5% from my dad that he wants me to beat him in his education achievements.

5% from my brother because he always talks so proudly about me and wants to be like me. I bet you will be better than me.

5% from my best friend although she might be so heatedly with me and my life, she pumped me up. She might not realized that though, or maybe she did.

Then from all the people who is always asking me about: “When will you be graduating?”, they give me 20% of spirits to pump up my self.

5% from the one who I haven’t met yet, that he might be around somewhere, so that I can make him proud when we finally meet. That is my 50% pumped up spirit for the things that are happening around me now.

The rest 50% belongs to God. He is the one who have given me all the impossible dreams to come true and enable me to be who I am today. Last year was the most recent work of Him. You might not believe it when you read this, but I do believe it because my life was and is and will be this far because of Him.

So, am I still pumped up? YES, I DO!

Go Kinan, Go Kinan!

No matter what, I have God, the best source of hope ever!

I let you go

2011-03-12T18:30:00.001+07:00

I sit here in the silence, i am waiting and i keep in praying. I have waited so long and you just disappear.

I cannot resist that my heart is missing you so much.

Wait a second, what are you for me? Or let’s change the order, what am I for you?

I am nothing and you are something. Or it could be I am something and you are nothing.

I lost my identity.

If I do nothing, I know I will be missing you soon and that break my heart.

If I do something, I know you will not be missing me and my heart is fine.

Few years ago, I was hoping that we could be something together but that was just a dream. And I know that dream may come true some day but I think I am waiting for you too long.

I close my heart completely because of you, i even put less care to the one that I have at that moment. I was sorry for that but that person have a happily ever after right now, so I don’t regret it.

I keep waiting, wherever I go, I wait patiently, I wait. When my communication gear rings or you appear in one of them, I tell you, my day was bright, so bright light the sun. Anyway, I think my days is always bright because I am doing things that I love so much beside my attention to you.

Then you gone. Suddenly, you come. Then gone, then come. Katy Perry describes you as hot and cold, but hold on we never be together, not a second. You are just hot and cold, gone then come. I was hurt then heal. I was cry and smile.

Listen to me, let me make you realize something: I am tired. I am going to give up. I lose my temper with you. I just don’t want you anymore (This is my biggest lie, I want you. Well, at least to know you.)

I let you go!

So, again I let you go… Go and shine. Please go! Please do shine!

And I know you already do. I wish you a happily ever after. Please do not come soon, my liver is still ruptured and the stitches are not strong yet.

I am here left behind. My chamber is still close. I know I have chance to know others but it doesn’t feel the same so I may just offer the key to Him, because He knows what’s best since the beginning.

And there he comes… :D

Just unexpected!

P.S. Dear God, here is the key of my heart. I am sorry that I put it under my pillow, wet it with my tears and crush it with my head. I am tired holding on to it. So here, please take it and please guard it. If he that You-Know-Who come to take it and if You have a chance for him, then please give it to him. If not, then please do give it to the better one. Thanks God. I will continue waiting and do something so I am sure I will be fine, at least I am fine. ;)

I know HE must be leading me… Keep in faith!

2011-03-12T10:26:00.001+07:00

“Lord, I would place my hand in Thine,
Nor ever murmur nor repine;
Content, whatever lot I see,
Since ’tis my God that leadeth me.”

That was the song that touch me today… I reckon the Indonesian verses from “Tenanglah Kini Hatiku” goes like this:

“Tak kusesalkan hidupku, betapa juga nasibku, sebab Engkau tetap dekat, tanganku dipegang erat.”

I know that He is leading me everyday.

I know that wherever I am going, He is with me.

I had a bad experience yesterday when I was on the way home. I sat on the public transport called angkot and beside me sat somebody called Mr.X as robber. He and his friends was successfully cheat a lady by selling a talking bird which can’t talk after they had left. The lady paid the bird with a Blackberry Torch and sum of money that I reckon quite a lot. Thanks God, I am safe. I feel so bad when I hopped of the angkot. So bad that my knees were shaking under pouring rain that wet me so.

I feel sad for the lady, but I cannot do a thing. In principle of Emergency where we have DRABC and D stands for Danger. At that time, it was a danger for me to help her. I chose to stay silent and pretend I didn’t recognize that because I might be hurt if I do something. Nobody knows whether they have a gun or any other thing with them.

Anyway, going from there. I got a called from my mom. After the quake that hit Japan yesterday (11.03.11), my mom rang me and said to be to not be panic because the government just said that there is a possibility for a tsunami in my hometown. Oh my God, what a news! I just keep praying and cannot stop it when my heart pounding again so fast. I am nothing compare to Your mighty hand Lord, and if You shake my hometown I will just get a ruptured liver (means: my heart is broken).

Praise God, everything was settled after 4 hours of anxiety. Everybody safe.

Late at night, my tutor at school chatted with me and she was asking about two person that was and is on my circle of relationship. It was A and B. A was my old friend, I should say we were close friend but then not anymore since something happened between us. B is my friend but I had no contact with her for sometime. When we discuss about them and my role, I just got the point that: We have so many relationships in our lives but not every relationship work well. There is a probability of failing relationship although we already trying hard to make it work. But there is one relationship that will work no matter what because the other party work really hard to keep the relationship. It was our relationship with God. It will never failed and He is there always forgiving us as we come to Him with our sad life where we must or have been messing things up for some time.

I leaned that no matter what God lead me. He holds my hand and He keeps me safe. Thanks Jesus!

P.S. I know that He keep you safe too.

My Soul-Mate Prayer

2011-03-10T01:04:00.001+07:00

Oh Lord, I pray for a man that would a part of my life

A man that really loves You more than everything

A man that will make me the second best in his heart

A man that lives not for himself but for You

Face and physical attraction isn’t important, the most important thing is I want a heart that really loves and thirsty of You and has a desire to be like Jesus. And he must know for whom and for what he lived, so his life isn’t useless.

Someone who has a wise heart, not only a smart brain.

A man that loves me but also respects me.

A man that not only can adore me but can warn me when I am wrong.

A man that loves me not for my beauty but for my heart.

A man that can be my best friend in every time and each situation.

A man that makes me feel like a woman when I am beside him.

I am not asking for a perfect man Lord, but I am asking for an imperfect man instead so I can make him perfect in Your eyes.

A man that needs my support for his strength.

A man that needs my prayer for his life.

A man that needs my smile to cover his sadness.

A man that needs my love so he could feel be loved.

A man that needs me to make his life perfect.

And I also ask Lord, please make me to be a woman that could make him proud.

Give me a heart that really loves You so I could love him with Your love not with my love.

Give me Your gentle spirit Lord Jesus, so my beauty won’t come for my appearance but come from You.

Give me Your hands that enables me to pray for him always.

Give me Your eyes so I can see many good things in him and not the bad one.

Give me Your mouth that fulfilled with Your words of wisdom and encouragement so I could support him everyday.

Give me Your lips and I will smile at him every morning and I want that when we finally meet, both of us, we can say: “How great Thou art!”.

Lord, please give me someone that could make my live perfect. I know that You want us to meet at Your right time and You will make everything beautiful in Your time.

In the name of Jesus, I pray.

AMEN.

The prayer above was a prayer that I have been praying since junior high. I can’t remember where I got that prayer but for them who has written this prayer, I want to say thank you. And I hope this prayer can still be a blessing for everybody else.

I am nothing without YOU

2011-03-10T00:14:00.001+07:00

When I take a look on my life from the start of my journey here during my university life, I can only say thank you to God. Because of Him, I can have the opportunity to study as a nurse and soon to be graduated as a nurse. So far, I am so proud of what I achieved and say that this must be only because of Him.

As I am still human and somehow imperfect, I feel I am messing up my life lately. I assume that in some point of my life these days, i did something wrong that i didn’t recognize unless somebody told me I am doing wrong. I just can’t feel anything related to right and wrong.

I need somebody to tell me that I am definitely doing something wrong and I need to change my direction. I am glad that God care for me, and He blessed me with a friend, a best friend, i should say that she never hold it back or never think about how I feel as long as she knows that I am doing something wrong and need some corrections. I like this person. She is one of few friends of mine that always say the truth. I am happier to know that God spoke to me through His word today, He said that because He loves me than He will discipline me. I am happy because I know that I need that at the moment.

I am sad to realize that i only have very few friends at the moment. This reminds me that i may not putting a lot of efforts to become a good friend that is why I have only few friends. Well, the proverb said, I need to be a good friend if I want to have a good friend. So maybe I haven’t tried my best to be a good friend.

Now my heart is still beating so fast to find out that near my end of study as I realize i need to write a research paper, my examiner are those who I adored in my school. A nurse from America, two nurses from Indonesia, and a nurse that is going to be in England. Well, four of them I adored because of their knowledge, skills, and attitude. I am trembling to meet them on the first presentation of my research, but I know I will be fine when I put my trust in Jesus.

Hey, let me tell you the song that I’ve been listening to lately. It said: “Teach me to trust in You, with all of my heart. To lean not on my own understanding. Because I just forget, You won’t give me what I can’t bear.”

I am nothing without Him, Jesus. All my relationship I need to lay it down to Jesus, He is the one and only Friend I had forever. The only Friend that has laid down His life for me so that I can be saved. For all my worries, I remember that my worries would not help me in finishing my research paper. Jesus will surely help me by providing a great wisdom and understanding about the topic. I know that He will use things around me to discipline me so I can be more like Him day by day.

I can’t stop talking about Him, because He is everything to me. Thank you Jesus that although I am this unclean and imperfect, You still loves me so. I am here Lord, presenting my life back to You. Please take the wheel and drive my life according to YOU J-maps, the map created by You where I can have a great journey in glorifying your Name.

If It Is Mine and It Will Be Mine.

2010-03-30T19:52:00.001+07:00

My tagline today is “if something is meant to be yours and it will be yours, no matter what.” What you have to do is praying and waiting and be patience. I just find out that I may have lost my patience. I just do things in instant way which is not the way I used to do things.

I just finished the day by drinking wine with my host mother and in the middle of it I just realize how lucky I am to have her. Although, yesterday I was uncomfortable with the house I just feel alright now. Well, no bodies know what people is thinking about you and what they may do to cut you down. Believe one thing as I always trying to do. Believe that GOD is stand there with you. HE loves you and I am sure HE will never ashamed you. Just be what you are. Be the best and try the best. If it is belong to you then it will be yours.

The time goes so fast and we will have Easter soon. What is Easter then for me? Easter is where GOD died for me. Take all my sins, my wrong doing things, and replace it with joy and a new life where HE become the King of my life. In this Easter, I was reminded about U-TURN. U-Turn is to change, change your direction, change your life, change yourselves. Well, I know I need to change my self and I do know I must love and love more.

I said I miss Jesus yesterday. Yeah, when I call HE is there is real. I just full of HIM today. When I wake up, I know He will be with me. When I walk the day, I know He is there. I need to speak more and listen more. Speak and listen. Pray and listen. This is the day, that I found myself full. I believe Jesus cares for today.

I just walked to the aged care today and I know that if GOD wants me to be there HE will make me there. I pray for the best. There is only one way to change, ask GOD to change by prayer.

My brother has his exam today and he said: “It was easy and it was hard. I’ve done it, no worries.”

Yeah, no worries. GOD holds me tight.

I Realize My Heart Missing Something.

2010-03-29T17:38:00.001+07:00

Today is 29th March 2010. It has been a month and 20 days for me to be away from Indonesia. It has been a memory for me to not having my mobile ringing with “Bunda calling” on it. I miss my mom, I miss her. I called her and she said to me: “Keep praying!” Yeah, I will keep praying.

As I did all my Uni work today I realize something. My brother is facing his final exam today. I can’t tell how exciting I am when I called him. He just said: “One day is done. Three more to come.”

As I keep doing my assignment for Uni, I realize something. I miss my dad as well. He keeps telling me to do my best. Have I? I miss him.

As I begin writing this, I realize something. I have one power to keep me doing thing right. I have the give of love with me. I have the one that die for me on the cross. And I will just live for Him.

It may be a hard work for my heart here. But I do believe that He is doing something with me. He is working with the new me. It is just Him in me and I just want be His. I have been brought with a precious price!

I miss Jesus.

Your Life and Others

2009-05-12T22:21:00.003+07:00

Today is 9^th May 2009 it’s Saturday and a day for an Easter Gathering in my church. I need to be in my church at 7a.m if I want not to pass the bus that brings us to the place where the gathering is located.

I realize my need today that my hair is oily and need to be wash and because I lived in dormitory it means that it took longer time for me to have a bath so I got up early and doing my bath that when I finished, I realized take 55 minutes (this is the longest time I ever had to wash myself in the morning and amazingly I just didn’t realized it until I finished and know what happen outside the bathroom).

In the middle of my bath a friend named A knocked and asked whether I’m finished or not because I take too long and she really needs to go in. I opened the door and move my head out with shampoo around my hair and said: “Wait a sec, I’m nearly finished.” But in reality, I still need to use conditioner for my hair and I can miss the step foaming my body, so exactly it’s not a sec but minutes. She knocked again and I said: “Hold on, on the way finished.” Then she never knocked again until I finished bathed and out of the bathroom. When I’m out I realized its 6.10 a.m., many friends is already dressed (when I enter the bathroom they’re still sleeping), and the sun is shining so brightly (when I enter the bathroom it was dark outside). So I take almost 1 hour in bathroom! Amazing!

Another friend of mine named B asked me what exactly I am doing inside that take almost an hour until that A needed to find another bathroom this morning. I said that I just take a normal bath with shampooing my hair because it’s oily. B said that I actually can make it faster because A needs to use the bathroom. I defeat myself by said that I’m not finished yet that time when she knocked and should I just go out the bathroom with foam and shampoo. She replied that actually I can make my bath moves faster so A can used the bathroom too. I said I made it faster but still need time to finish. That conversation ended that way that I a bit sour to her and maybe she isn’t or she is, I don’t know.

So we went to church. Arrived 20 minutes late and started the trip to somewhere for gathering. In the gathering there is a mini sermon deliver by a preacher that I never met before. He began to read from the Philippians 2:1-4 which is stated below (in English and Bahasa Indonesia).

If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion,

Php 2:2 then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose.

Php 2:3 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.

Php 2:4 Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

Php 2:1 Jadi karena dalam Kristus ada nasihat, ada penghiburan kasih, ada persekutuan Roh, ada kasih mesra dan belas kasihan,

Php 2:2 karena itu sempurnakanlah sukacitaku dengan ini: hendaklah kamu sehati sepikir, dalam satu kasih, satu jiwa, satu tujuan,

Php 2:3 dengan tidak mencari kepentingan sendiri atau puji-pujian yang sia-sia. Sebaliknya hendaklah dengan rendah hati yang seorang menganggap yang lain lebih utama dari pada dirinya sendiri;

Php 2:4 dan janganlah tiap-tiap orang hanya memperhatikan kepentingannya sendiri, tetapi kepentingan orang lain juga.

Then he began to speak about how we should act as a follower of Christ that we should pay attention to the need of others and put it first before out needs. Before he started speaking, the event happened this morning to me just shown up and made me sad because I know on that situation I’m not paying any attention on the interest of others and just focused the world in me.

This sermon hit me!

So I just take a commitment today for giving more attention on the interest of others and not always on me.

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlighten other."

Thank you LORD!!

2008-12-01T13:06:00.002+07:00

This year is a long journey for me....
Now i just want to thanks God for his blessings.

Firstly for His financial supervision in my life,,,,
He did all things right on it each time...
I know He is so rich and He gives many blessings so I'm thankful for every single financial blessing that i had.

Thank to God for His wonderful love in my life that He already brought me so far this year...
Never imagine of this situation and chance before,,,
He just absolutely so GREAT.

I wanna thanks GOD for HIS guidance for me especially in my study,,,
i just realize that i can't come in this far if HE was not stand by my side and hold my hand.
My journey is a journey that i never imagine how it will looks like without HIM...

Thank you LORD for holding me so far....
I pray that You can continue use me as what You want me to be...
I'm nothing, Lord, my skills and knowledge only I got from You...
continue use me Lord as your servant and let every single thing that happen in my life just because of Your Grace in me.

Make me humble and patience, let me have faith and hope in You.
i know sometime i become bored, but remembering me Lord for nice and great things, GOD, that You have done to me and give me power and spirit that enable me to run throughout my journey for the future that You had planned since I'm in my mother's womb.

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

Life is time for learn!

2008-10-22T15:45:00.002+07:00

hi...
Today when i'm writing this, i am sad.

in my campus i become a representatives for our student devotion. Today i am helping the slide operator to build up the slides.
last few weeks, i also did the same job.

but then today, i learn something in thing that i did.
the chapel, i sais it chapel, started in 1.40pm. and it is 1.00pm and i'm not ready for the chapel. i'm just not doing things that i should do exactly. i just only have 40 mins left to fix all thing for chapel then suddendly things goes wrong. i cant get the computer and pojector connected. we are usng the easyworship program, but i cant set it u correctly. 10 min left, the speaker come. the speaker is my head of school and i really appreciate her for what she did in nursing. so back again in my problem, the computer an projected is not connected. i'm just so scared because my dean come and ask me, whats happen. i said that we have a problem here, and she said that therefore she ask me this day toc heck the things out.

hmmm..... my hand become soooo cold. colder than the air con in the room..
:P
then i pray: GOD this is my fault but let this chapel be done well.
she looked me, and i just want to ran out of the room....
:)
and now, i turn the comp off. start it again and it begin to be done well.
:D
PRAISE GOD!

it then works the chapel started, but i'm still feel guilty. SO GUILTY!
it started 20mins late, girl!

it goes then until the end. but after it finish, i then realize all things i did was a hurt for some people. then i begin to say sorry to them but they still mad at me i think. so thats my point feel so sad!!!

30mins later, i realize things:
1. do thing with preparation, be really SURE that you prepare it well. Check all things!
2. you can ask for sorry to people but yur mistake leaves a some bad picture of you. like if you take a nail from a wood, it will still leave a hole on it.
3. days still coming, try to do your BEST in everything.
4. LET GOD BE THE LEADER! you may be the leader in ur organisation but let GOD guide you!!!

:D
May GOD bless you!

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

LASKAR PELANGI

2008-09-29T10:43:00.001+07:00

hmmm….
thinking about this film, thinking about my life really is.
i’m sad.

the scene where Mahar said: ‘let Mahar and the nature do” make me really disappointed with what i’ve done.

everybody has their natural capacity and ability, sometimes we just think that we are incapable doing things.

Lintang can do it more better. long road to ride with a high bike that he never sat on. face the alligator before school. take care of his 3 sisters. oh, hard work. but he did it and become a success person.

no matter who you are, what you are, try to do the best and let GOD draws your day!

let your dream draws your days!

Mimpi adalah kunci (dream is the key)
Untuk kita menaklukkan dunia (to conquer the world)
Berlarilah tanpa lelah (keep running and dont be tired)
Sampai engkau meraihnya (until you reach it)

Laskar pelangi (rainbow troops)
Takkan terikat waktu (not bind by time)
Bebaskan mimpimu di angkasa (freed your dreams to the sky)
Warnai bintang di jiwa (color the stars in you soul)

Menarilah dan terus tertawa (dance and keep laughing)
Walau dunia tak seindah surga (even if the world not as beautiful as heaven)Bersyukurlah pada yang Kuasa (give thanks to GOD)
Cinta kita di dunia.. (our love in the world)
Selamanya… (forever)

Cinta kepada hidup (love for life)
Memberikan senyuman abadi (give eternal smile)
Walau hidup kadang tak adil (even the life is unfair)
Tapi cinta lengkapi kita (love complete us)

Laskar pelangi
Takkan terikat waktu
Jangan berhenti mewarnai
Jutaan mimpi di bumi

Menarilah dan terus tertawa
Walau dunia tak seindah surga
Bersyukurlah pada yang kuasa
Cinta kita di dunia..

Menarilah dan terus tertawa
Walau dunia tak seindah surga
Bersyukurlah pada yang kuasa
Cinta kita di dunia..
Selamanya…

“RUN FOR YOUR DREAMs!”

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

LOVE!

2008-07-03T22:35:00.001+07:00

I was in the shower when these questions passed by in my mind and made me have a break during my ritual. I’m asking myself these questions: “Who love me? Where is the love? Why love me? What is exactly the love?” I then thought twice or may be twice multiply twice multiply again and again. Yes, Love what it is??

Then I realize when I’m standing and breathing, it is love. When I’m walking, it is love. When I’m eating and drinking, it is love. It is the love from my almighty and indescribable GOD. Why am I still asking for love? When my mom, bro, dad, and families called me in phone, it shows that they love me. When someone text me, whoever it is, it shows love too. And why am I still asking for love??

Sometimes I’m just not satisfied for what I have and begun to protesting for all things that I already have in my life. My devotion today then also made me realize that, yeah, I’m a FRIEND of GOD. I must be so grateful. Wherever I am, whatever I am, whatever I do, JESUS still loves me. He loves me more than everything, more than anything and more than any precious things that I have. Jesus loves me unconditionally.

Then, this sentence appeared: “Never ask for what is love, where is love, why is love, maybe you will be blind and looks stupid with it. But do this: Do all the small things in your life with all your heart then you will find that there is bunch of love, which made what you’ve done amazingly. Do small things with love and you will find out: how the love exactly is!”

And now it is time to finish my ritual.

P.S.:
Thanks GOD for all love that I have! Let me love every single thing in my life and let me share Your love with all.

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

Inspired ME!

2008-07-01T22:48:00.002+07:00

I was thinking about my future when this song appeared in TV and I just shocked about what I thought. Poorly, this is an Indonesian song sung by a kids group.

I’m trying to translate it (brackets) but first I write the Indonesian version. Hope that my English is good enough.

Sukacita (Joy) Sukacita (Joy)
Tuhan mengasihiku, Dia pegang masa depanku. (God loves me, He is handling my future)
Takkan pernah ku ragu, ku berharga di mataNya. (I will never be in doubt; I’m precious in His eyes)
Ku kan terus bertekun mengejar semua harapku, mengejar semua citaku (I will always do my best in all my hopes, and will run for all my dreams)
Ku punya masa depan penuh harapan, Tuhan menjamin hidupku. (I have a bright future with hopes, God is guaranteed my life)
Asal ku tetap setia, memandang terus ke depan, ku yakin Tuhan menopang hidupku. (As long as I have strong desire in Him, looking forward, I believe that God holds my life)
Ku kan berlari mengejar citaku, ku yakin Tuhan menopang hidupku. (I will run to get my dreams, because I believe that God is holding my life)

This song actually based on the verse in the Bible that said “God’s plan is the perfect one, it’s bring good for us."

Sometimes, I thought, I’m not good at all, I can’t do things great and I’m nothing. But, then I realized how God has drawn my life so perfectly. I’m His
picture. He has planned such a beautiful plan that I never ever imagine before. Looking a while to my life right now, it was amazing I can enter my university; it was just so amazing I can get scholarship and work-placement after finish my study although I’m just in the 3rd semester right now; it’s amazing to have this GPA. I met a lot of friends that I can never find in another place, met brother and sister that bring me in God and encourage me to keep believing.

The song above remembered me, why should I be sad. I MUST have joy. JOY. JOY. I must only be proud of GOD. He is doing things so wonderful. I’m just like a sprinter in front of the finish line when I suddenly stopped and cried out for the way I already passed. It’s only some small run then I’m going to be a winner in this competition, but I’m stuck in my track and can run anymore. This song gives me a new spirit that I must run again run as fast as I can because the dreams that I dreamed about night and day are behind the finish line. I can never achieve that if I never continue run and run as fast as I can. And while keep running can you guess what I have? I have a forever and ever supporter that never stopped yelling on me to continue running until I reach the finish line. This everlasting supporter is God Himself. He is there watching me running and reassured me for the dreams I have after the finish line.

So, why keep crying and weeping girl? Wake up. Finish your track. It’s just on the middle of it. 3 and a half round and you have just passed the 1st round, coming next the 2nd, then the 3rd and the last half, then you finish your track.
Keep on spirit. Never give up. He is your everlasting supporter. He is yelling at you. He has a fulfillment of your dreams.
Keep running girl! Keep running! You and I can’t see the finish line right now, but we can feel it. It’s over there.

Keep running!

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

Why am I.......?

2008-07-01T22:42:00.002+07:00

The story is for the one who ask me a question and I have at that time no answer. Now I have it. This story explains much more about it. But, truly I love to be that kind. I really feel comfort and glad to be that kind.

Jangan Pernah Berhenti

Dia hampir saja tidak melihat wanita tua yang berdiri dipinggir jalan itu,tetapi dalam cahaya berkabut ia dapat melihat bahwa wanita tua itu membutuhkan pertolongan. Lalu ia menghentikan mobil Pontiacnya di depan mobil Mecedes wanita tua itu, lalu ia keluar dan menghampirinya. Walaupun dengan wajah tersenyum wanita itu tetap merasa khawatir, karena setelah menunggu beberapa jam tidak ada seorang pun yang menolongnya. Apakah lelaki itu bermaksud menyakitinya?

Lelaki tersebut penampilanya tidak terlalu baik, ia kelihatan begitu memprihatinkan. Wanita itu dapat merasakan kalau dirinya begitu ketakutan, berdiri sendirian dalam cuaca yang begitu dingin, sepertinya lelaki tersebut tahu apa yang ia pikirkan.

Lelaki itu berkata "Saya kemari untuk membantu anda Bu, Kenapa anda tidak menunggu di dalam mobi,l bukankah di sana lebih hangat? Oh ya, nama saya Bryan.” Bryan masuk ke kolong mobil wanita itu untuk memperbaiki yang rusak. Akhirnya ia selesai, tetapi dia kelihatan begitu kotor dan lelah, wanita itu membuka kaca jendela mobilnya dan berbicara kepadanya, ia berkata bahwa ia dari St Louis dan kebetulan lewat jalan ini. Dia merasa tidak cukup kalau hanya mengucapkan terima kasih atas bantuan yang telah diberikan.

Wanita bertanya berapa jumlah yang harus ia bayar, berapapun jumlahnya yang ia minta tidak menjadi masalah, karena ia membayangkan apa yang akan terjadi jika lelaki tersebut tidak menolongnya. Bryan hanya tersenyum. Bryan tidak mengatakan berapa jumlah yang harus dibayar, karena baginya menolong orang bukanlah suatu pekerjaan. Ia yakin apabila menolong seseorang yang membutuhkan pertolongan tanpa suatu imbalan suatu hari nanti Tuhan pasti akan membalas amal perbuatannya.

Ia berkata kepada wanita itu "Bila Anda benar-benar ingin membalas jasa saya, maka apabila suatu saat nanti apabila Anda melihat seseorang yang membutuhkan pertolongan maka tolonglah orang tersebut dan ingatlah pada saya.". Bryan menunggu sampai wanita itu menstater mobilnya dan menghilang dari pandangan.

Setelah berjalan beberapa mil wanita itu melihat kafe kecil, lalu ia mampir kesana untuk makan dan beristirahat sebentar. Pelayan datang dan memberikan handuk bersih untuk mengeringkan rambutnya yang basah. Wanita itu memperhatikan sang pelayan yang sedang hamil, dan masih begitu muda. Lalu ia teringat kepada Bryan. Setelah wanita itu selesai makan dan, sang pelayan sedang mengambil kembalian untuknya, wanita itu pergi keluar secara diam-diam.

Setelah kepergiannya sang pelayan kembali, pelayan itu bingung kemana wanita itu pergi, lalu ia menemukan secarik kertas di atas meja dan uang $1000. Ia begitu terharu setelah membaca apa yang ditulis oleh wanita itu: "Kamu tidak berhutang apapun pada saya karena seseorang telah menolong saya, oleh karena itulah saya menolong kamu, maka inilah yang harus kamu lakukan: "Jangan pernah berhenti untuk memberikan cinta dan kasih sayang.".

Malam ketika ia pulang dan pergi tidur, ia berfikir mengenai uang dan apa yang di tulis oleh wanita itu. Bagaimana wanita itu bisa tahu kalau ia dan suaminya sangat membutuhkan uang untuk menanti kelahiran bayinya? Ia tahu bagaimana suaminya sangat risau mengenai hal ini, lalu ia memeluk suaminya yang terbaring disebelahnya dan memberikan ciuman yang lembut sambil berbisik :"Semuanya akan baik-baik saja, I Love You Bryan".

"Segala sesuatu yang berputar akan selalu berputar kembali ke titik semula, karena itu janganlah berhenti berbuat kebaikan dalam hidupmu."

Es gibt eine die hat mich gefragt, warum bin ich immer so nett an anderes? Ich habe im das Moment keine Antowort, aber jetzt habe ich etwas. Ich bin nett weil es gibt SO viele Leute die an mich so ganz nett sind. Ich versuche mich nett zu sein. Und ich glaube ich muss noch lernen nett zu sein und nett immer sein.

Fuer der Person die mir diese Frage angestellt habe, ich sage mir DANKE. Du hast mich viel Dings geholfen. Und ich bedanke mich an dich und an Gott dass ich dir kennen lernen kann. Ich bete mich dass alles gute mit dir und viel erfolg noch bei deinem Leben.

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

FILM Review

2008-06-25T12:32:00.003+07:00

Libur memberi banyak kesempatan untuk menonton film!!!! Beberapa film yang aku tulis dibawah ini adalah fim yang menurut aku bagus untuk di tonton, sayangnya kadang aku tak ingat benar siapa pemainnya tapi kisah di dalam film-film itu benar-benar keren.
Two thumbs up! If I have four than I would say, “Four thumbs up!”
hehehhee....
=)

1. The chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian
I saw this film in cinema. This is a great film. The story is about the Narnia Kingdom. Diangkat dari novel karangan C.S. Lewis, film ini adalah sekuel dari film sebelumnya The chronicles of Narnia: The Lon, The Witch, and the Wardrobe.
Yang main film ini tetep sama kayak pemain film di sekuel sebelumnya tapi udah pada jadi lebih dewasa sih sekarang. Selain itu ada juga pemain baru yang memerankan tokoh Prince Caspian itu sendiri, Ben Barnes yang cakep dan punya aksen Inggris yang beda sama pemeran Narnia lainnya deh.
Di film ini, aku belajar tentang bagaimana untuk selalu bersikap tenang dalam kondisi panik sekalipun. Selain itu, aku juga belajar untuk memaafkan.

2. Kungfu Panda
Film ini adalah film animasi yang keren dan ada di bioskop. Kocak dan dijamin bisa bikin ketawa dansenyum-senyum sepanjang nonton film ini. Yang ngisi suara juga ternyata artis-artis keren euy.
Ada Jack Black yang ngisi suara si Po Panda, Jackie Chan yang ngisi suara si Monkey, Angelina Jolie yang ngisi suara si Tigress, trus ada Lucy Liu yang ngisi suara Viper. Yang pasti film ini keren abis deh.
Oh iya, si Po Panda itu seseorang yang ngak mungkin deh belajar kungfu karena secara dianya panda yang gendut dan ngak mungkin banget deh buat bergerak lincah kungfu. Tapi berkat Master Shifu, si Po bisa deh jadi pendekar naga yang keren abis dan mengalahkan Tai Lung, si macan putih yang jahat.
Di film ini, nilai tentang mentoring juga kelihatan banget saat si Master Shifu berusaha ngebantu Po buat jadi pendekar naga. Shifu tahu kalo Po bakal bersemangat kalo dengan yang namanya makanan, jadinya si Master Shifu memanfaatkan ini buat melatih si Po. Alhasil berhasil deh si Po.
Shifu emang contoh mentor yang keren!!!

3. The Da Vinci Code
Film ini ditayangin di TV. Dari dulu memang belum pernah nonton karena merasa kalo film itu menimbulkan konflik dalam diri seperti yang diceritaan orang2 kebanyakan ngapain ditonton. Tapi kemudian pas ada di TV nonton ah.
Dan ternyata emang sih filmnya rada aneh, tapi ceritanya lumayan menantang dan banyak kayak detektif gitu deh.
Selain itu film ini keren juga visualisasinya. Ketika salah satu tokoh lagi nyeritain sesuatu pasti ada visualisasinya yang keren. Bagus deh ngeliatnya.
Yang aku pelajari ternyata sejarah itu segitu ribet dan rumitnya yah…
Kalo digabungin sama ilmu pengetahuan bisa jadi lebih rumit lagi.
Ngak nyangka!

4. Hope
Film ini juga ada di TV. Setting ceritanya di zaman dulu saat orang kulit hitam ngak disukai sama orang kulit putih. Tapi ada satu anak yang namanya Lilly yang bergaul dengan orang hitam yang Kristen dan membuat Lilly ngalamin banyak hal indah dalam hidupnya.
Orang hitam itu ngajarin Lilly kalo terkadang emang kondisi yang kita liat di depan mata sama sekali ngak memungkinkan untuk berkomunikasi tetapi ketika kita coba dan mulai mendengarkan pasti bisa.
Ibu Lilly adalah orang yang lumpuh dan ngak bisa bicara tetapi bisa mendengar, dan karena kekurangan ibunya hubungan Lilly dan ibunya jadi ngak bagus. Tapi setelah ngobrol sama orang hitam itu, Lilly jadi mencoba mendekati ibunya dan hubungan mereka jadi baik deh.
Dari film ini, aku belajar bahwa terkadang kita memang dituntut untuk peka dengan kebutuhan orang lain dan belajar menerima mereka apa adanya.

5. Norbit
Film ini juga di TV. Ngisahin ttg percintaan dari kecil 2 orang anak yatim piatu Norbit dan Kate. Kate pergi meninggalkan panti asuhan dan Norbit menikahi seorang wanita bernama Rasputia yang sejujurnya menurut aku yah sama sekali ngak mencintai si Norbit. Norbit yang malang, kerjanya benar2 dimarahin sama istrinya, disuruh macem2 sama istrinya. Tapi salut deh sama Norbit karena ia tetap melakukan semuanya dengan cinta.
Sayangnya, si Rasputia emang keterlaluan banget dengan nge-date bareng orang lain. Norbit tersinggung dan marah banget, ia juga ketemu Kate lagi dip anti asuhan.
CLBK deh! (cinta lama bersemi kembali).
Kerennya di film ini keliatan banget gimana seseorang yang benar2 mencintai orang lain itu akan bertndak, bodo c keliatannya. Tapi well, keren!
Dari Norbit aku belajar gimana seseorang harus bertindak di masyarakat. Norbit baik banget dan ia disenengin sama semua orang. Norbit emang keren!

6. Dear GOD
Film ini di TV. Aku seneng nonton film ini, nyeritain ttg surat! i really love letters!
Seneng deh ngeliat ada banyak banget surat yang dihandle di film ini.
Settingnya di post office, nyeritain ttg gimana banyak banget orang yang menulis surat kepada Tuhan dan surat-surat untuk Tuhan itu jumlahnya banyak banget! Berawal dari keinginan membantu orang akhirnya beberapa orang pegawai pos bersepakat untuk menolong orang2 yang nulis surat pada Tuhan.
Film ini keren, karena dengan adanya misi ini setiap orang jadi percaya dengan keajaiban. Walaupun gak bakalan terjadi dengan instan tapi ketika orang percaya dengan keajaiban maka pasti akan ada jalan yang membuat keajaiban itu terjadi.
Finally, I believe that there will be some miracles.

7. Touch The Top of The World
Ceritanya ttg orang buta karena penyakit pemisahan retina yang punya mimpi untuk mendaki banyak gunung. Orang tuanya juga selalu berusaha memperlakukan dirinya sebagai orang yang normal. Erik nama orang buta itu benar2 sangat CAKEP.
Dari Erik aku belajar bahwa setiap orang punya kelebihan dan kekurangannya sendiri dan dalam kehidupan kita bakalan saling melengkapi satu sama lain.
Erik adalah seorang guru di sekolah normal dan ia bertemu dengan istrinya di sekolah itu. Kisah cinta mereka romantis dan keren. Istri Erik adalah wanita yang selalu ngedukung apapun yang dilakukan Erik, termasuk ketika Erik yang senang mendaki pengen mendaki Mount Everest. Istrinya bilang kalo dia adalah orang yang jahat kalo sampai menghalangi orang yang dicintainya mengejar mimpinya.
Erik berhasil sampai ke puncak Mount Everest berkat bantuan mentornya yang keren PV. PV ngebantuin Erik dari awal pendakiannya sampai ke pos terakhir menuju Mount Everest. PV menanamkan bahwa memang Erik ngak bisa ngeliat gimana medan pendakian mereka sangat sulit tapi PV mau Erik tetap fokus dan berusaha melakukan semaksimal yang Erik bisa.
Erik juga diajarin sama PV kalau ia harus tenang buat mencapai semuanya.
Jujur, aku salut sama Erik yang gigih dan bener2 berjuang buat dapetin apa yang jadi mimpinya.

that is some of film i saw, ditonton yah,, keren kok!
semoga jadi Berkat juga!

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

From Bandung with LOVE....

2008-06-25T12:07:00.004+07:00

LIbur telah tiba, libur telah tiba, hatiku gembira. Ya itulah yang aku rasakan. Liburan membawaku ke banyak tempat yang belum pernah aku kunjungi. Salah satunya Bandung..

On the way to Bandung, I feel ‘wow’, this will be a great place to visit. I like it.
This is my first time visit Bandung,,,,

First day in Bandung, aku masuk angin. =( padahal biasanya kalo ke t4 baru aku ngak pernah kembung. =( Tapi Bandung keren! Aku jalan ke Rumah Mode dan itu hiks.. penuh dengan banyak sekali orang,, tapi keren sih tempatnya. Udah gitu jalan ke Menu cookies, tempatnya juga keren. Terutama cookiesnya,, =) Love it much. Di situ juga banyak benda yang berbau bebek. LUCU!

Aku mampir juga ke Istana Sepatu dan beli sepatu. =) Mampir ke Donatello dan beli sepatu lagi. =) Kisah beli sepatu di Bandung ngak bakal terlupa deh,,, Hahahaha…

Udah gitu kita makan malam di Boemi Joglo, nice place! Makanannya juga enak banget, di situ aku pertama kali nyobain nasi timbel.. ENAK!! Dan kita pada berebutan mengorek keraknya.. hehehe,,,,,

After dinner, kita jalan2 ke Cihampelas.. Ke Ciwalk… =) Trus nonton Kungfu Panda, tapi sayangnya ngak dapet yang jam 10 malem, jadinya kita midnight deh.. dan duduknya misah-misah =( tapi seru juga sih, aku duduk sendiri dan orang yang duduk di sebelahku geng cowok ber4,, Film itu kocak dan cowok yang disebelahku persis, ketawanya parah euy,, kursi tuh sampe goyang2 ngak jelas,, kursi yang malang..

Next day, I go to church. Ke GKI di Jalan Maulana Yusuf. Gerejanya keren. Yang main Bassnya juga keren… Hahaha…

Udah gitu aku mengunjungi hutan lindung sorenya, keren euy. Makan jagung bakar, masuk
kegua belanda dan gua jepang… ternyata yah kayak gitu gua itu,, dingin dan gelap… =)

sebelum masuk sih gak takut,, pas masuk,,, hiiiii,,, rada nyeremin,, tapi yah keren euy guanya.. canggih lah,,, ada saluran airnya, ada radio segede lemari.. ada t4 naro obor dan kalo mau kabur ada jalan kecil keluar yang pake tangga keren kan..ngak nyangka zaman dulu juga udah modern.

STOP! tempat ini keren! sangat keren euy!

maaf yah,,, sekedar mengingat kalo udah pernah kesana... =)

Trus, nyobain yang disebut nasi tugtug di Roemah Nenek, enak! Nasi pake oncom!
first time in life eat oncom! hehhee....

Aku jg nyobain Surabi keju, Surabi Coklat, Surabi Oncom yang asli pedasnya, Surabi telur, Surabi telur oncom. Hehehhe..

Nyobain buah kesemek dan kecapi! ENAK!

Aku juga nyobain nasi cikur, nasi yang dipakein kencur dan keripik tempe..
ENAK!

Endingnya aku masih merasa kurang nyobain makanan2 dari Bandung,,
=(

The next Bandung Season 2 will come!

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

Drink WATER!

2008-06-19T11:14:00.002+07:00

DRINK WATER ON EMPTY STOMACH

It is popular in Japan today to drink water immediately after waking up every morning. Furthermore, scientific tests have proven its value. Below a description of use of water for our readers. For old and serious diseases as well as modern illnesses the water treatment had been found successful by a Japanese medical society as a 100% cure for the following diseases: Headache, body ache, heart system, arthritis, fast heart beat, epilepsy, excess fatness, bronchitis asthma, TB, meningitis, kidney and urine diseases, vomiting, gastritis, diarrhea, piles, diabetes, constipation, all eye diseases, womb, cancer and menstrual disorders, ear nose and throat diseases.

METHOD OF TREATMENT
1. As you wake up in the morning before brushing teeth, drink 4 x 160ml glasses of water
2.Brush and clean the mouth but do not eat or drink anything for 45 minute.

3. After 45 minutes you may eat and drink as normal.
4. After 15 minutes of breakfast, lunch and dinner do not eat or drink anything for 2 hours
5. Those who are old or sick and are unable to drink 4 glasses of water at the beginning may commence by taking little water and gradually increase it to 4 glasses per day.
6. The above method of treatment will cure diseases of the sick and others can enjoy a healthy life.

The following list gives the number of days of treatment required to cure/control/ reduce main diseases:
1. High Blood Pressure (30 days)
2. Gastric (10 days)
3. Diabetes (30 days)
4. Constipation (10 days)
5. Cancer (180 days)
6. TB (90 days)
7. Arthritis patients should follow the above treatment only for 3 days in the 1st week, and from 2nd week onwards - daily.

This treatment method has no side effects, however at the commencement of treatment you may have to urinate a few times.
It is better if we continue this and make this procedure as a routine work in our life. Drink Water and Stay healthy and Active.

This makes sense ...
The Chinese and Japanese drink hot tea with their meals ..not cold water.
Maybe it is time we adopt their drinking habit while eating!!! Nothing to lose, everything to gain...

For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you. It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion.

Once this "sludge" reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer. It is best to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal.

A serious note about heart attacks:
* Women should know that not every heart attack symptom is going to be the left arm hurting,
* Be aware of intense pain in the jaw line.
* You may never have the first chest pain during the course of a heart attack.
* Nausea and intense sweating are also common symptoms.
* 60% of people who have a heart attack while they are asleep do not wake up.
* Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let's be careful and be aware.

The more we know, the better chance we could survive...

MINUM AIR PADA SAAT PERUT KOSONG

Di Jepang sekarang ini sangat popular sekali trend minum air segera setelah Bangun pagi. Apalagi, test ilmiah telah membuktikan keampuhannya. Kami memberikan deskripsi penggunaan air kepada pembaca kami dibawah ini. Terapi air ini telah dibuktikan sukses oleh kumpulan pengobatan Jepang untuk penyakit lama dan serius dan juga penyakit moderen. Penyakit-penyakit tersebut adalah sebagai berikut: Sakit kepala, sakit badan, system jantung, arthritis, detak jantung cepat, epilepsi, kelebihan berat badan, asma bronchitis, penyakit ginjal dan urin, muntah-muntah, asam lambung, diare, diabetes, susah buang air besar, semua penyakit mata, rahim, kanker, datang bulan lancar, dan penyakit telinga, hidung dan kerongkongan.

METODE TERAPI
1. Setelah anda Bangun pagi sebelum mengosok gigi, minum 4 x 160 gelas air
2. Gosok dan bersihkan mulut tetapi jangan makan ataupun minum apapun selama 45 menit
3. Setelah 45 menit anda boleh makan dan minum seperti biasa
4. Setelah 15 menit sarapan, makan siang dan makan malam, jangan makan ataupun minum apapun selama 2 jam
5. Untuk anda yang tua ataupun sakit dan tidak dapat minum 4 gelas air pada saat mulai bisa digantikan dengan meminum sedikit air terlebih dahulu dan kemudian ditingkatkan secara berkala hingga 4 gelas per hari.
6. Metode diatas adalah terapi untuk mengobati penyakit dari orang yang sakit dan orang lain dapat menikmati hidup yang sehat.

Daftar berikut adalah jumlah hari yang dibutuhkan untuk terapi pengobatan/control/ mengurangi penyakit utama:
1. Tekanan darah tinggi (30 hari)
2. Asam lambung (10 hari)
3. Diabetes (30 hari)
4. Susah buang air besar/konstipasi (10 hari)
5. Kanker (180 hari)
6. Tuberculosis (90 hari)
7. Pasien arthritis disarankan untuk mengikuti terapi diatas ini hanya 3 hari pada minggu pertama dan dari minggu kedua dan seterusnya - setiap hari

Metode pengobatan ini tidak mempunyai efek samping, tetapi pada saat pelaksanaan pengobatan ini anda mungkin akan buang air beberapa kali.

Adalah lebih baik jika kita melanjutkan terapi ini dan menjadikan prosedur ini sebagai rutinitas kerja dalam kehidupan kita. Minum air dan tetap sehat dan aktif.

Hal ini masuk akal.... Orang Cina dan Jepang minum the hangat pada saat makan mereka ... bukan air dingin. Mungkin sudah waktunya kita mengadopsi kebiasaan minum mereka sewaktu makan !!! Tidak ada yang dirugikan dari hal ini.

Untuk yang suka minum air dingin, artikel ini mungkin berguna untuk anda. Adalah enak untuk minum minuman dingin setelah makan. Bagaimanapun, air dingin akan memadatkan minyak yang anda konsumsi. Ia akan memperlambat pencernaan.

Sekali "kotoran" ini bereaksi dengan asam, ia akan dipecah dan diserap oleh intestine lebih cepat daripada makanan padat. Ia akan berbaris dalam usus besar. Dengan cepat, ini akan berubah menjadi lemak dan menjadi pemicu kanker. Adalah sangat bagus untuk minum sup hangat ataupun air hangat setelah makan.

Pesan yang serius untuk serangan jantung:
* Wanita seharusnya tahu jika tidak semua simptom serangan jantung adalah sakit pada lengan kiri.
* Berhati-hatilah terhadap sakit yang sangat pada garis rahang
* Kamu mungkin tidak pernah merasakan sakit pertama pada dada selama serangan jantung
* Pusing dan keringat berlebihan merupakan simptom pada umumnya. * 60% dari orang mengalami serangan jantung ketika mereka sedang tidur tetapi tidak bangun lagi.
* Sakit pada rahang dapat membangunkan anda dari tidur yang lelap. Mari berhati-hati dan sadar. Makin banyak kita tahu, kesempatan bertahan hidup menjadi lebih besar

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

teori 10/90

2008-06-18T10:42:00.000+07:00

10 % dari hidup kita terjadi karena memang harus kita alami.
Kondisi ini tidak bisa kita kendalikan.

90 % dari hidup kita ditentukan dari cara kita memutuskan sesuatu atau bereaksi atas hidup itu sendiri.
Kondisi ini adalah bagian yang bisa kita kendalikan.

Cara kita bereaksi terhadap suatu kejadian yang telah terjadi bisa membawa kita kepada keadaan yang lebih baik atau justru keadaan yang lebih buruk.

Respon kita pada 5 detik pertama setelah kita mengalami sesuatu, akan menentukan hasil akhirnya.

Be AWARE for ur reaction!

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

Let's bear our fruits in JESUS!

2008-06-18T10:15:00.005+07:00

Belajar Dari Buah:

1. Jadilah Jagung, jangan jambu Monyet.
Jagung membungkus bijinya yang banyak, sedangkan jambu monyet memamerkan bijinya yang cuma satu-satunya.
Artinya : Jangan Suka Pamer

2. Jadilah pohon Pisang.
Pohon pisang kalau berbuah hanya sekali, lalu mati.
Artinya: Kesetian dalam pernikahan.

3. Jadilah Duren, jangan Kedondong.
Walaupun luarnya penuh kulit yang tajam, tetapi dalamnya lembut dan manis. Beda dengan kedondong, luarnya mulus, rasanya agak asem dan di dalamnya ada biji yang berduri.
Artinya : Don't Judge a Book by The Cover. Jangan menilai orang dari luarnya.

4. Jadilah Bengkoang.
Walaupun hidup dalam kompos sampah, tetapi umbinya putih bersih.
Artinya : jagalah hati jangan kau nodai.

5.Jadilah Tandan Pete, bukan Tandan Rambutan.
Tandan Pete membagi makanan sama rata ke biji petenya, semua seimbang, tidak seperti rambutan, ada yang kecil ada yang gede.
Artinya : selalu adil dalam bersikap

6. Jadilah Cabe.
Makin tua makin pedas.
Artinya : Makin tua makin bijaksana.

7. Jadilah Buah Manggis.
bisa di tebak isinya dari pantat buahnya.
Artinya : Jangan Munafik.

8. Jadilah Buah Nangka.
Selain buahnya, nangka memberi getah kepada penjual atau yang memakannya.
Artinya : Berikan kesan kepada semua orang ( tentunya yang baik ).

Tuhan banyak bicara tentang 'buah' dalam Alkitab.
Ada 265 ayat yang mengandung kata buah.

Sebagai ORANG KRISTEN kita di tuntut untuk berbuah.
Mengapa?
Karena kalau tidak berbuah kita di anggap tidak berproduktif bahkan di tebang.

"Kapak sudah tersedia pada akar pohon dan setiap pohon yang tidak menghasilkan buah yang baik, akan ditebang dan dibuang ke dalam api (Lukas 3:9)".

Firman di dalam Matius lebih tegas lagi:
"Kapak sudah tersedia pada akar pohon dan setiap pohon yang tidak menghasilkan buah yang baik, pasti ditebang dan dibuang kedalam api (Mat 3 : 10)".

Agar bisa berbuah kita harus melekat kepada sang pemberi buah itu sendiri:
"Tinggallah di dalam Aku dan Aku di dalam kamu. Sama seperti ranting tidak dapat berbuah dari dirinya sendiri, kalau ia tinggal pada pokok anggur, demikian juga kamu tidak berbuah, jikalau kamu tidak tinggal di dalam Aku ( Yoh 15 :4)".

Allah tidak pernah tanggung-tanggung jika Ia suruh berbuah, Dia ingin berbuah lebat:
"Akulah pokok anggur dan kamulah ranting-rantingnya. Barangsiapa tinggal di dalam Aku dan Aku di dalam dia, ia berbuah banyak, sebab di luar Aku kamu tidak dapat berbuat apa-apa (Yoh 15 : 5)".

Bukan hanya berbuah banyak tetapi kita harus stabil:
"Bukan kamu yang memilih Aku, tetapi Akulah yang memilih kamu. Dan Aku telah menetapkan kamu, supaya kamu kamu pergi dan menghasilkan buah dan duahmu itu tetap, supaya apa yg kamu minta kepada Bapa dalam nama-Ku, diberikan-Nya kepadamu (Yoh 15 : 16)".

Mengapa?
Karena orang dunia hanya bisa melihat buah kita :
"Dari buahnyalah kamu akan mengenal mereka. Dapatkah orang memetik buah anggur dari semak duri atau buah ara dari rumput duri? (Mat 7: 16)".

Buah apa yang perlu kita hasilkan?
Buah roh:
"Tetapi buah roh ialah: kasih, sukacita, damai sejahtera, kesabaran, kemurahan, kebaikan, kesetian, kelemahlembutan, penguasaan diri. Tidak ada hukum yang menentang hal-hal itu. Barangsiapa menjadi milik Kristus Yesus, ia telah menyalibkan daging dengan segala hawa nafsu dan keinginan (Gal 5:22-24)".

Mari berbuah!
Let's bear OUR FRUITS in JESUS!

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

Leben und leben noch...

2008-06-17T09:01:00.004+07:00

Dieses Monat ist mein Sommerfreien Monat, und ich lebe noch...
Hoffen dass es wird als ein Klasse feriensmonat sein. Es ist aber eine Tolle Ferien. Ich bin in Bandung. Fuer die ersten Mal in meinem Leben habe ich dem Bandung mal besuchen. Ich bin total aufgeregt fuer diese Reise. Und hat immer gefragt, warum denken die Leute dass die Factory Outleten so wahnsin sind.
ich kann mir nicht denken und glauben. Letzte Samstag hatte ich den FO besuchen, und ich kann mich nicht bewegen dort, es gibt so viele Leute und jeder hat ganz viele Keleidung zu an probieren. Echt, es gibt nicht nur die Maedchen und Frauen sogar auch die Jungen und Manner, wer hat irgendwelche Kleidung fuer seiner Freund gesucht.

Ja ja, ich lebe und leben noch.

Uebrigens, ich habe 2 neuen Schue gekauft...
ich liebe schue, schoenes Schue bring mir an die am schonesten Platz.
Das ist meine Meinung.

Hauptsache, Bandung ist cool.
Kalt und warm.
Schones wetter denke ich.
=)

Ja, ich lebe und leben noch.

nicht vergessen dass ich muss 2 proposalen sammeln..
hiks...

ich lebe und leben noch.
=)

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

SEHAT yuuk,,,,

2008-06-16T14:49:00.002+07:00

TIPS MENARIK :
HIDUP LEBIH SEHAT -
Dr. Don Colbert

Jadwal yang disarankan untuk meminum dua liter air setiap Hari :
30 menit sebelum makan pagi = 1 gelas
2,5 jam setelah makan pagi = 1 gelas
30 menit sebelum makan siang =1 gelas
2,5 jam setelah makan siang = 1 gelas
30 menit sebelum makan malam = 2 gelas
2,5 jam setelah makan malam = 1 gelas
30 menit sebelum tidur = 1 gelas

Minum air sebelum makan memiliki dua kepentingan :
1. Akan mengurangi nafsu makan karena perut anda terasa penuh.
2. Memberikan manfaat positif bagi pencernaan anda.

Menghindari sikap negatif untuk hidup yang lebih sehat :

Perasaan-perasaan mematikan berpengaruh terhadap kesehatan tubuh Kita.
Dampak-dampak dari perasaan-perasaan mematikan yang tidak pernah Terpikir oleh Kita sebelumnya adalah :

KEMARAHAN,
dapat menyebabkan :
-Rheumatoid arthritis
-Serangan jantung-Penyakit jantung
-Gagal jantung
-Kanker
-Tekanan darah tinggi
-Stroke
-Tukak lambung

Dr. Robert Eliot, seorang ahli kardiologi ternama, menemukan bahwa Ketika "para pereaksi panas" itu memendam perasaan-perasaan mereka, itu Pada akhirnya berubah menjadi permusuhan Dan kemarahan.
Ketika itu Terjadi, tekanan darah meningkat tajam, resiko serangan jantung Dan Stroke akan lebih tinggi.
Maka, lepaskan kemarahan Dan mintalah Pengampunan, jangan menyimpan kemarahan sampai matahari terbenam.

KEBENCIAN Dan IRI HATI, dapat menyebabkan :
-Tekanan darah tinggi
-Sakit kepala migran
-Penyakit jantung
-Tukak lambung
-Kanker.

Ketika seseorang mengalami kemarahan yang berlebihan, kekhawatiran Dan Stress yang diakibatkan oleh kebencian, tingkat adrenalinnya meningkat, Tekanan darah juga meningkat Dan dengan begitu jantung -khususnya Serangan jantung- bertambah bagi mereka yang hidup dalam kemarahan. Orang-orang itu menghadapi resiko penyakit jantung dua kali lebih tinggi Dibanding orang lain. Sebagai tambahan, ketika seseorang mengalami Kekecewaan, kemarahan atau ketakutan saat makan, perasaan-perasaan Negatif ini merangsang system saraf simpatiknya, yang pada gilirannya Menyebabkan berkurangnya pengeluaran enzim-enzim pancreas, yang Menciptakan kesulitan dalam pencernaan makanan.Ini menyebabkan perut kembung, adanya gas, sakit ulu hati, Dan masalah Pencernaan lainnya.

Stress yang berlebihan yang disebabkan oleh Perasaan-perasaan negatif cukup berbahaya karena itu meningkatkan Tingkat kortisol Kita, yang kemudian menekan system kekebalan tubuh Kita. Ketika system kekebalan Kita tertekan, sel kanker mulai terbentukDan berkembang.Kebencian Dan iri hati merupakan perasaan-perasaan yang merusak.

KESOMBONGAN,
dapat menyebabkan :
-Penyakit mental
-Stroke
-Serangan jantung
-Kematian

Kerendahan hati Dan ucapan syukur kepada Pencipta akan melindungi anda Dari perasaan yang paling mematikan
- kesombongan.

KETAKUTAN Dan KEKHAWATIRAN (ANXIETY), dapat menyebabkan :
-Penyakit jantung
-Penyakit mental
-Kepanikan
-Depresi
-Serangan jantung
-Fobia.

Tubuh anda bisa menanggapi ketakutan Dan kekhawatiran dengan memicu Pelepasan hormon adrenalin secara berlebihan, yang menyebabkan Percepatan denyut jantung, penigkatan ventilasi paru yang abnormal, Telapak tangan berkeringat, Dan meningkatnya kontraksi system Pencernaan. Ketakutan Dan kekhawatiran yang berkesinambungan dapatMenyebabkan keadaan peningkatan ini terjadi terlalu lama, Dan dapat Menyebabkan kelelahan adrenalin, kelelahan, Kegelisahan Dan kepanikan, gejala sulit buang air besar Dan sakit kepala Karena ketegangan. Kelelahan fisik Dan emosional Dan kelemahan systemKekebalan tubuh anda dapat terjadi, Dan hasil akhirnya adalah penyakit.

DEPRESI,
dapat menyebabkan :
-Kanker

Penelitian telah menunjukkan bahwa pria memiliki kecenderungan untuk Melepaskan kemarahan mereka, sementara wanita cenderung Menyembunyikannya. Adalah benar bahwa kanker dapat menyerang semua Orang, tetapi salah satu factor yang paling umum yang ditemukan para Peneliti sebelum kanker menyerang adalah 'kurangnya penyaluran emosi'.
Ibu rumah tangga memiliki peluang 54% lebih besar terkena kanker Dibanding populasi pada umumnya Dan 157% lebih besar dibanding dengan Para wanita yang bekerja di luar rumah.

Langkah-langkah untuk mengembangkan hati yang gembira untuk menghasilkan Kesehatan yang baik Dan jauh dari penyakit:

-Mengampuni
-Mengendalikan lidah
-Bersahabatlah dengan orang-orang yang positif
-Berilah makanan yang sehat ke dalam pikiran anda
-Kehidupan berohani yang akan mengubah kehidupan

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

Country? Staat?

2008-06-11T20:45:00.006+07:00

Country or staat no matter.
Jeden Staatsnamen kann man auf eine mehrere worter sein
Ich war in meinen Freunde blog und ich finde dieses Dings.
Es ist lustig und na ja gut zu lesen.
ich hab es genommen und jetzt, es is hier in meinem Blog.
Lese es durch.

Vielleicht kann man ja irgendwann benutzen.
Gehe mal durch dann.

H.O.L.L.A.N.D.
Hope Our Love Lasts And Never Dies

I.T.A.L.Y.
I Trust And Love You

L.I.B.Y.A.
Love Is Beautiful ; You Also

F.R.A.N.C.E.
Friendships Remain And Never Can End

C.H.I.N.A.
Come Here… I Need Affection

B.U.R.M.A.
Between Us, Remember Me Always

N.E.P.A.L.
Never Ever Part As Lovers

I.N.D.I.A.
I Nearly Died In Adoration

K.E.N.Y.A
Keep Everything Nice, Yet Arousing

C.A.N.A.D.A.
Cute And Naughty Action that developed into attraction

K.O.R.E.A.
Keep Optimistic Regardless of Every adversity

E.G.Y.P.T.
Everything’s Great, You Pretty Thing!

M.A.N.I.L.A.
May All Nights Inspire Love Always

P.E.R.U.
Phorget (Forget) Everyone… Remember Us

T.H.A.I.L.A.N.D.
Totally Happy, Always In Love And Never Dull

J.A.K.A.R.T.A
Jambret Ada, Koruptor Ada, Rampok Tentu Ada

P.S.
Kayaknya yang singkatan paling bawah maksa.
hohoho...

=)

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

My GPA, thanks GOD!

2008-06-10T15:22:00.003+07:00

Thank you Lord!
--the only sentence i can said after checking my GPA..

Mengucap syukur karena nilai yang bagus. Awalnya sempat merasa ngak yakin dengan IP karena ada nilai yang belum masuk, tetapi ketika di cek lagi hari ini.

Praise GOD,
Er hat mich die beste Noten gegeben, die ich mich gebietet habe.
Ja, Er hat meine Gebiet gehoert und hat es erfuellt.

Sampai saat menulis blog ini, saya masih kagum dengan Tuhan yang jawab doa di semester ini.

Mau bagi kesaksian sedikit, jujur semester ini agak tidak segigih semester yang awal. Dan sebagai orang yang juga sangat takut dengan ujian yang nggak bisa saya berdoa dan minta Bapa untuk membantu saya dalam ujian. Saya minta Bapa untuk membantu saya mendapatkan nilai yang minimal 80 untuk ujian mid semester. Tahukah Anda apa yang terjadi?
Nilai mid semester saya semua hanya berkisar di nilai 80, tidak ada yang 90 atau 70.

Benar2 seperti doa saya.
Anatomy n fisiology 80, Contemporary Health Care 88, B.Inggris 81, Agama 85, FNP 88.
iya kan semua 80 saja. Tentunya disertai belajar semaksimal mungkin.

Lalu saya berdoa lagi untuk ujian semester, kali ini minta Tuhan berikan nilai yang ngak kurang dari mid semester dan iya Bapa berikan lagi..
Walau ada hasil yang membuatku tercengang dan sadar kalo memang pelajaran selalu nomor 1.

Akhirnya berdoa untuk IP, minta Bapa yang berikan terbaik, lebih dari semester yang lalu dan memang seperti itu yang jadi.

Tuhan Yesus memang luar biasa.

Percayalah kepadanya dengan segenap hatimu, dan IA akan bertindak.
Usahakanlah semuanya dengan sebaik-baiknya, dan IA akan mengerjakan yang terlewat.
IA mampu selesaikan yang tersisa untuk dirimu.
IA menyelesaikannya dengan baik, bahkan sangat baik.

Tuhan bilang:

Yes, HE always make us smile on HIS right time.

Just totally trust HIM.

"A candle will never lose its light if it is used to enlihgten other."

Mentor? Yes, I am.

2008-06-10T13:59:00.000+07:00

Tanggal 30mei-1juni kemarin, saya ikut training mentoring buat mahasiswa baru angkatan 2008.

Training itu adalah training dgn materi yang keren yang buat saya semakin mengerti apa sebenarnya yang dilakukan oleh seorang mentor. Awalnya saya memilih menjadi mentor karena sepertinya enak punya teman2 baru dari angkatan baru yang nantinya bisa saya bantu dan saya promosikan kegiatan2 yang saya tahu di kampus. Namun, training ini memberi saya pandangan yang lebih luas lagi ttg apa mentor itu, bagaimana mentoring, dan apakah saya bisa jadi mentor.
mentor lebih kepada orang yang membantu seseorang buat menemukan potensi maksimal dalam dirinya dan mentoring adalah mempertanyakan pertanyaan "how can i help you?' kepada mentee.

Bukan seseorang yang rela dikerjain oleh mentee dan bukan juga orang yang dengan rela hati ngerjain mentee. Intinya jadi mentor brarti membantu orang lain...

Pertanyaan apakah saya bisa jadi mentor?
Jawabannya : SAYA BISA.
Bukan sekadar jawaban 'BISA' biasa karena jawaban bisa yang disertai dengan konsekuensi pengorbanan dan hal-hal lain yang menyertai kehidupan sebagai seorang mentor selanjutnya.

Kalo ada orang yang tanya saya:
WHO ARE YOU?

Jawabannya:
I'M MENTOR; YOU ARE MENTOR
TIDAK TAKUT..
TIDAK TAKUT
BERSAMA KITA BISA..

karena
PASUKAN!!
CHANGING MYLIFE BY CHANGING YOUR LIFE.
YAHUUII...

jangan lupa juga EAAAKKK....!

here I am as a Mentor!
a People Grower...

Buku keren!

2008-06-09T22:49:00.000+07:00

Setelah nyelesein tugas religion semester 2 kemarin, saya menganggap buku yang saya baca sangat keren.
ayo silakan baca juga.

1. Manusia surgawi.

buku ini mengisahkan perjuangan iman Yun di Cina yang benar-benar membuat tubuh merinding dan tak percaya. Banyak mujizat yang ia alami dan banyak hal yang menunjukkan bagaimana Allah benar2 mengasihi manusia dan tidak pernah meninggalkan manusia.

2. Basic Christianity

buku ini keren menuliskan ttg bagaimana kehidupan kristen itu dan bagaimana setiap tindakan kita bisa menjadi dosa. Buku ini juga menuliskan bagaimana Tuhan kita begitu menghargai diri kita dan ngak pernah memaksa kita buat menerima Dia sebagi Tuhan dan Juruslamat tapi Dia memberi kita kebebasan untuk menerima Dia.

Ayo baca buku2 tersebut!

Happy Easter, Happy Season....

2008-03-24T19:09:00.000+07:00

Ada paskah, ada sukacita...

dan itulah yang kami semua rasakan...

walau capek dan yah gitu deh..

tapi tetap saja enjoy..

lihat kami sekarang banyak yah..

i'm so glad to have them all...

new chapter of anatomy and physiology

2008-03-01T16:26:00.001+07:00

well, time goes fast...

time to learn new things...

Semangat!!!!

belajar sistem rangka or skeletal system and ol inside the skeletal system....

before it have learn about all systems in the body... the 11 of them (nervous, integumentary, lymphatic, reproduction, skeletal, etc)

Semangat!!!!!

with my friends...

2008-03-01T15:48:00.000+07:00

me, dona and vasthi...

me and my 'sister' rakhel....
she become more than sister, my rival, my criticer, my advisor, hahaha...

thx girl!!

with rakhel, stevani(pontianak), febrina (palembang)

they filled me up with laugh....

hahahaha....

with sarah as background...
we are in the same group in the clinical practice...
this make us closer and have fun in the hospital...

keep secret girl for our habit in the lunch time...
sleep!!

looking for the next practice!!

we lived together and say cheese...
before sleep how about take pict...

hahahaha....

donna, rakhel, febri, fani, imel
icha, silvi, efmi, me...

after class before dinner how about to stretching in the mall...
hey, got a big chiken, let's have pict...
cheer up girlss!!

well, people said wherever we go we always meet friends and they make our days colorful..

and i tell you that it's true...

i live now in the dormitory and well friend is everything...

they support, they critism, they love, they hate

we cry, we try, we fight, we suffer...

this life be more beautiful with friends...

FRIENDS FOREVER!!

new haircut...

2008-03-01T15:31:00.000+07:00

setelah mengalami tragedi poni...

akhirnya sekarang berponi aneh..

dan seperti inilah bentuknya sekarang diriku yang gendut ini...

hari ini sedang lihat final baskt putri dan putra di UPH..

tapi berhubung gak ngerti mau ngapain lagi jadinya nulis blog deh..

tapi sebenarnya juga nggak ngerti tentang basket sih jadinya nggak tau gimana mau nontonnya...

hehehe...

Just really miss them...

2008-02-13T18:42:00.001+07:00

Baru sebulan yang lalu ketemu sekarng sudah kangen..

Hikss..

tapi tak apalah ada telpon ini..

hehe....

i want to make you all proud of me..

i'm SURE!!

Don't wanna make y'all disappointed on me..

just as what mama said...

SEMANGAT!!

Yeah..... I got a blog...

2008-02-13T18:26:00.000+07:00

Welcome to my blog..

i also new to my blog.

This is my first posting here and i am so glad to have this blog.

Actually, i can't share a forword in my Blog but I thaned GOD for enable me to create this Blog.

Hopefully it can help me toshare what happend to me in my life about my study and how it's going.

Hope thta someday i will be a GREAT nurse and can help a lot of people around the world.

"The candle will not loses anything if it lightening another candle"

So, i want be the candle that lightening another candle.

And, believe that all things will be alright in HIS right time..

Macht's gut then..

ich bin beschaeftig mit meinem Quizz.

hehe..

SEMANGAT!!